harper & lewis

Mar 28 Nov - 17:57

[sent to: lewis moore, 01:23pm, 10/20/23]

woops, looks like someone was eager to use their question for today

too bad

moron

_________________

days ache and nights are grey

My heart is still your place : Some scars you can't erase and i Guess i still feel the same. Well, I'll take all the vitriol But not the thought of you moving on, 'Cause I'm not ready To find out you know how to forget me.

Mar 28 Nov - 18:02

[sent to: Harper, 07:15am, 10/21/23]

That was so unfair I had to set up an alarm for today. Anyway. I'll start with a lame question because I'm curious : do you actually enjoy your current job ?

Mar 28 Nov - 18:08

[sent to: lewis moore, 08:17am, 10/21/23]

did you really set an alarm?

that's, like, super cute

and about my job, hm

idk, it's like the first time i keep a job for more than two months so ig i like it

[sent to: lewis moore, 02:47pm, 10/21/23]

tho sometimes i also hate it

like rn

but my boss is super nice and i feel like i can really learn about flowers and shit

it's just... not what i wished for

_________________

days ache and nights are grey

My heart is still your place : Some scars you can't erase and i Guess i still feel the same. Well, I'll take all the vitriol But not the thought of you moving on, 'Cause I'm not ready To find out you know how to forget me.

Mar 28 Nov - 18:52

[sent to: Harper, 10:06am, 10/22/23]

Since you didn't get the first text, I'm sadly not allowed to answer your question. You'll have to eternally wonder if I'm actually cute or not. Also, don't know if I'm allowed to comment, but I'm glad it's at least going somewhat well.

Anyway, next question I guess. Do youuuuuu... have any pets ? I swear I'll think about better questions for the next days.

Mar 28 Nov - 19:18

[sent to: lewis moore, 01:17pm, 10/21/23]

haha

i do not have pets

found a stray cat and adopted him three years ago, but he left after a few months

_________________

days ache and nights are grey

My heart is still your place : Some scars you can't erase and i Guess i still feel the same. Well, I'll take all the vitriol But not the thought of you moving on, 'Cause I'm not ready To find out you know how to forget me.

Mar 28 Nov - 19:29

[sent to: Harper, 07:45am, 10/23/23]

Noted. Do you come to see Mona sometimes ?

Mar 28 Nov - 19:32

[sent to: lewis moore, 08:12am, 10/21/23]

yeah

your parents love me, remember?

at first i came to see them, and when she arrived i babysitted a lot

guess i won't as much now

_________________

days ache and nights are grey

My heart is still your place : Some scars you can't erase and i Guess i still feel the same. Well, I'll take all the vitriol But not the thought of you moving on, 'Cause I'm not ready To find out you know how to forget me.

Mar 28 Nov - 19:36

[sent to: Harper, 08:02am, 10/24/23]

You can still see and babysit her if you want to. Do you want to ?

Mar 28 Nov - 19:41

[sent to: lewis moore, 08:09am, 10/24/23]

yeah, i'd like that

[sent to: lewis moore, 08:11am, 10/25/23]

did you shut off your alarm today?

wait, that's not my question

joker

if you could go back in time, would you leave again?

_________________

days ache and nights are grey

My heart is still your place : Some scars you can't erase and i Guess i still feel the same. Well, I'll take all the vitriol But not the thought of you moving on, 'Cause I'm not ready To find out you know how to forget me.

Mer 29 Nov - 6:13

[sent to: Harper, 10:35am, 10/25/23]

If we go by the basis that I'd keep my memories or even the slightest idea of what's happening next, no.

It was a stupid fucked up decision that I took for shitty reasons, and that I've regretted for six years, while digging myself deeper into it every day.

I realize it's a bit late for regrets but there's not much else I can do, I guess

And as a freebie ; didn't turn my alarm off, I still have to go to work. I just felt like giving you a chance to ask for once

Mer 29 Nov - 6:17

[sent to: lewis moore, 08:19am, 10/26/23]

you're sweet

not that i didn't know that but, still

if you were this regretful, why didn't you just fuckin text back?

_________________

days ache and nights are grey

My heart is still your place : Some scars you can't erase and i Guess i still feel the same. Well, I'll take all the vitriol But not the thought of you moving on, 'Cause I'm not ready To find out you know how to forget me.

Mer 29 Nov - 6:30

[sent to: Harper, 10:36am, 10/26/23]

Because I'm a messed up coward, I guess

I tried texting back. As soon as I turned on my phone again, a couple months after

after i left

i just froze

every fucking time i froze

looked at your texts and tried writing anything, anything at all, but it felt like it would just make it worse for you and

idk

even tried writing a letter instead and it was unreadable shit

i guess i hoped youd end up hating me enough to stop caring and itd be easier for you than

waiting ?

idk there's no good reason for anything i've done the past six years

[sent to: Harper, 7:31am, 10/27/23]

still have the otter plushie you bought for xmas ?

Mer 29 Nov - 6:43

[sent to: lewis moore, 08:13am, 10/27/23]

gave one to mona, kept the other one

the otter one

why?

nevermind, not my turn to ask questions

[sent to: lewis moore, 07:26am, 10/28/23]

why did you come back, then?

_________________

days ache and nights are grey

My heart is still your place : Some scars you can't erase and i Guess i still feel the same. Well, I'll take all the vitriol But not the thought of you moving on, 'Cause I'm not ready To find out you know how to forget me.

Mer 29 Nov - 6:57

[sent to: Harper, 8:04am, 10/28/23]

The end of my studies was basically my deadline

I think, in my mind, I was either gonna come back once I'm done with them and finally get a good grasp of how to use my power without being an egotripping danger, or I'd have to stay away if nothing changed

fucked up, i know

I wasn't even sure i was ready but i just couldn't

fuck

[sent to: Harper, 11:23am, 10/28/23]

Sorry about that. So yeah, short answer : if I ever wanted to come back it was now or never and I didn't want to miss my only chance at living again

Mer 29 Nov - 8:10

[sent to: Harper, 10:12am, 10/29/23]

would you have prefered if i never came back, after all this time?